The Push by Ashley Audrain

Jeepers.. this book! It is truly unputdownable. I picked it up after lunch one afternoon planning to read for 15 minutes while I drank my tea... well! I was utterly gripped and that was the end of the afternoon!! It’s a thought provoking read on motherhood, the insecurities you bring into it, the doubts, the guilt, the unknown, the what-if's, the way you were mothered, what happens to you when no-one believes you.... what a great read! I literally finished it with my heart in my mouth! Chilling, heart-stopping, compulsive...

What happens when your experience of motherhood is nothing at all what you hoped for, but everything you always feared?

Blythe Connor is reluctant to become a mother. She is desperate to ensure history doesn't repeat itself. Violet is her first child and she will give her daughter all the love her own mother, and her grandmother before her, withheld. But Violet is demanding and fretful and as she grows from baby to toddler to pre-schooler, Blythe can't seem to get close to her. She feels that something's very wrong. Either with her daughter, or herself. Her husband says she's imagining it and that Violet's a darling little thing. But Violet's different with him. And he can't understand what Blythe suffered as a child. No one can.

Then their son Sam is born and with him, Blythe has the instant connection she’d always imagined with her baby. Even Violet seems to love her little brother. But when life as they know it is changed in an instant, the devastating fall-out forces Blythe to face the truth.